Window Pane

Most of life is spent looking out a window. From the first crib you are placed in to the hurst window you take your last ride in. As a child there was a window seperating me from where I wanted to be, outside. As a teenager there were places I wanted to go and people I wanted to be with but could only look through the window of my bedroom and watch others interact. I wanted to be out there living among them interacting with the world as everyone else did. I wanted out of my side of the window thinking that life on the other side was much better. Although my grandmother tried to warn me I had no idea what I had to go through to interact with the world I desired to be a part of so badly. You see between me and the world was not just a window but pain (pane). Yes to live on the other side of the window I had to go through the pain to get to the other side. Pain is not something one really discusses but I didn't listen to all the warning signs. Girl, you really don't want to ____ or you really ought not to _____. I only had my eyes on the other side of the window and not so much what it would cost me to live on that side. As I looked closer at the people I so desperately wanted to interact with once I got on the other side of the window, I saw great dull pain on their faces. Something I had missed. It took me a while to realize that the dullness came from going through the window pane. I too had pain from going through the window, but I met someone who healed me and removed my dullness. His name is Jesus and you too can live a painless life. Once the he removes the dullness there is nothing you cannot do or be. I thank LaSandra Hill for a June 1, 1991 day in her dentist office. She saw my dullness and pain and she introduced me to the rest of my life. Although living life has it's own ups and downs I no longer live hopeless. Now the window that I look forward to is the window that God opens to pour out blessings.